Oops!

I know I have not updated this thing in forever. Thats because I quit losing weight! It was too much to worry about while trying to finish school. I swore that 2 weeks after I was done I would start Weight Watchers again. It now been 7 weeks and I have done nothing. I went to the Doctor the other day because things are all messed up in the woman department(I will leave it at that). She ordered quite a few different labs to be drawn and called me with the results. She told me that my cholesterol levels were through the roof and that it needed to be taken care of ASAP! I dont know the exact numbers, well I cant remember them, but I know that they WAY to HIGH! I already knew they were high but I didnt tell her that. I was on meds but because of some issues I never got more when I ran out. Anyway she also told me that my Blood Glucose levels were extremely high as well. I've assumed for awhile that I was pre-diabetic but maybe its turned into actual diabetes??? I dont know! So I will go have a Hemoglobin A1C. This will show my blood sugars over the last 3 months. I also have to go have a glucose tolerance test done as well. That is the one that pregnant ladies do. I feel like I am too young to be worrying about all of this. I know I am overweight and I dont eat healthy but how many people my age really do? So I guess I will start Weight Watchers again and really try to limit my sugar intake. I think I will quit drinking soda as well. I switched to Diet but apparently thats not enough! It will be hard, I need it working graveyards! But I guess I need to start thinking about my future more and where I want to be and that is not lying in a coffin or a hospital bed because I've had a stroke or a heart attack!

Finally!

I put off blogging once again because I was so dissapointed. Last week I only lost 0.8lbs. I was a little bit discouraged. This week though I was very surprised. I lost 4.8lbs. That brings my total loss to 11.6lbs. Not bad for one month, I have to say! I have lost almost 5% of my total body weight. I am much happier tonight!

Disappointed!

I am a little behind. I was trying to procrastinate for as long as I could. I only lost 0.4 lbs last week. I was very sad. I knew I had lost less but didnt know it was less than a pound. My total weight loss so far is 6 pounds which isnt too bad for 2 weeks. Hopefully I have lost more this week. I will find out in 2 days.....SCARY!!! Time is going by so fast. I havent been as good at working out the last few days. I have had a bit of a cold and just havent felt like it but I know that I need to get going again. I feel SOOO much better when I do.

Oh well...

I can pretty much gaurantee that I havent lost as much weight this week. But thats OK! I started working out with the exception of yesterday but I plan to work out extra today to make up for it. I have started eating much healthier except the fries I have ate a couple of times. I still stayed within my points though! I have been getting in all of my fruits and vegetables. I eat only low calorie, fat free wheat bread. I switched to spray "butter". I eat turkey on my sanwiches rather than ham and I quit putting miracle whip on them. I switched to diet Pepsi. I wish I could quit drinking soda all together but as long as I go to school and work nights I need my Pepsi! I have had way less heart burn/acid reflux!!! Yay!! Working out feels great. I am very out of shape so I cant do much to start out with but I am able to do more than I thought I would have done. I have been using the Gazelle at my moms house when I go over. It hurts my feet a little but its a great little piece of equipment. I know I should go over to the club house and jump on the treadmill but I am still a little nervous! I dont have an Ipod or anything to listen to. Thats just boring! I think I may go buy one tomorow though! They are $150 for an 8 GB at Target right now. Thats not to badof a price. I know I would never regret buying one, its just getting up the nerve to spend that much money at once.

YAY!!

So my total weight loss this week was 5.6lbs. That is just crazy! I am not sure how it happened, but I am ecstatic!!! I earned my first Gold Star today! For every 5lbs that I lose I will recieve 1 Gold Star! Kind of childish but I look forward to earning more. 94.4 pounds to go!!!

Lessons learned....

I know that I said I wouldnt blog again until tomorow but I thought I'd type a few things while I wait for Jaydens bus to get here. In the last couple of days I have learned a few things. #1. Apples taste really good. Its not like I never ate apples before but I forgot how sweet they can taste. #2.Teriyaki sauce must have some sugar in it. I have never ate many teriyaki flavored foods because I didn't think I really liked the taste. It is low in points though so I thought I would try it on some chicken. After tasting just a bite I realized it was nasty and mixed the rest of my sauce with a little bit of brown sugar and it was tasty! #3. Low fat sour cream tastes pretty good! #4. I can still eat everything I love while on Weight Watchers and be satisfied.
#5. I need to eat small amounts often if I want to prevent myself from starving. I have been eating snacks like string cheese, 15 garden vegetable wheat thins, 100 calorie snacks(many kinds), and granola bars. Each of these are 2 points. I can have 30 points every day. Any vegetables that are green are 0 points. I love celery!!! I have 35 points I can eat each week for special occasions. I am kind of pretending these points dont exist but at some point I may use them like on Birthdays, or family dinner once a month, bunko, or whatever. I will try to save points up throughout the day by eating lots of 0 and low point items. Such as Progresso soups that have 1 or 0 points. I really hope that tomorow I have lost a couple of pounds or at least 1 pound. I have been doing pretty good although, I have yet to start working out but now finals are over with I will have lots of time to get started.

And so it begins....

So I finally did it! I went to my first Weight Watchers meeting today. One of the nurses(Peggy) that I work with said she would come with me. She is old enough to be my Grandma but she is totally cool and an awesome friend. I am glad she decided to come with because its always easier with a partner. I was a bit disappointed to find out that I weighed 14 more pounds than what I weighed on my scale. That is a huge difference. 240 punds just makes me sick. That now puts my weight loss at 100 lbs. Thats a whole person, a skinny person anyway. Nasty, nasty!!! Well I officially begin on Monday! I went shopping today and stocked up on lots of healthy things and a scale to weigh my meats with. I am taking lots of herbal things right now to cleanse my body of toxins. Hopefully it will also help me to feel better. Well thats all for now. I will blog again after Thursday, my first weigh in.

What I would like to get back to!

This is me 8 years ago. I was actually "happy" at this point in my life. I had toned up, lost like at least 20 lbs and was doing good. I was also about to go to Mexico so of course I was happy! At this size I wore a 12 and could fit into some 10's. I would like to be at least a 12 but a 10 would be perfect. I know because of the size of my boobies that I cannot get into smaller than an X-large. So I am ok with that. I have a closet full of nice clothes that I cannot fit into. This includes like 8 sets of scrubs. I would love to be able to wear them soon. But I am a 2X now and they are larges so probably wont happen any time in the next 4 months. Oh and my size now is a 22. That just makes me sick. I normally wouldnt tell any one my size or weight but I WILL NOT GET ANY HEAVIER so I have justified it with myself. I would love to lose 8 lbs a month. That is my monthly goal or 2 lbs a week. If I lose more GREAT, but I will not expect any more than that. If I could lose 8 lbs a month for 9 or 10 months I would be back to the me I LOVE! But I know that you start to slow down towards the end and don't lose the same as at the beginning.

This is one of my senior pictures. I would like to at least be this size but if I can lose more that would be great to!

Bigger now then when I was pregnant?

I am bigger now than when I was 8 months pregnant. That is just sad!I weigh the same or more now.

I am Fat!

OK so I am just setting this thing up and it may be a couple of weeks before I start to blog. I am going to start Weight Watchers in 2 weeks and need any support or help that I can get. I heard at one time the more people you tell that you are trying to lose weight the more successful you will be.

My goals are
1. To lose 75 lbs.
2. Eat healthier.
3. Exercise at least 30 minutes, 5 times a week.
4. Lower my B/P and my cholestrol.

My back is constantly hurting, I know having all this extra weight is not helping at all. I am afraid that if I dont lose this fat that soon I will be having back surgery. Since the accident, I am having some sciatica and some neuropathy in my right leg. I don't want back surgery EVER! I am FAT and UNHEALTHY right now. I can admit I am lazy, so this is going to be difficult. I am choosing Weight Watchers because I can still eat everything I like but in moderation. I hope that I can lose all the weight in a year. I am tired of feeling crappy, old, and tired all of the time. I can't keep living my life this way. I will be done with school in 4 months and would like to start dating again. I can't do that unless I feel better about myself. I hate the way I look right now. I seriously make myself sick. Jayden looks at me and sais " you are a giant mommy". Meaning I have a big belly! I also have a closet full of clothes and scrubs that I would like to wear again. OK well that all for now. I will blog again when I get started.