And so it begins....

So I finally did it! I went to my first Weight Watchers meeting today. One of the nurses(Peggy) that I work with said she would come with me. She is old enough to be my Grandma but she is totally cool and an awesome friend. I am glad she decided to come with because its always easier with a partner. I was a bit disappointed to find out that I weighed 14 more pounds than what I weighed on my scale. That is a huge difference. 240 punds just makes me sick. That now puts my weight loss at 100 lbs. Thats a whole person, a skinny person anyway. Nasty, nasty!!! Well I officially begin on Monday! I went shopping today and stocked up on lots of healthy things and a scale to weigh my meats with. I am taking lots of herbal things right now to cleanse my body of toxins. Hopefully it will also help me to feel better. Well thats all for now. I will blog again after Thursday, my first weigh in.

What I would like to get back to!

This is me 8 years ago. I was actually "happy" at this point in my life. I had toned up, lost like at least 20 lbs and was doing good. I was also about to go to Mexico so of course I was happy! At this size I wore a 12 and could fit into some 10's. I would like to be at least a 12 but a 10 would be perfect. I know because of the size of my boobies that I cannot get into smaller than an X-large. So I am ok with that. I have a closet full of nice clothes that I cannot fit into. This includes like 8 sets of scrubs. I would love to be able to wear them soon. But I am a 2X now and they are larges so probably wont happen any time in the next 4 months. Oh and my size now is a 22. That just makes me sick. I normally wouldnt tell any one my size or weight but I WILL NOT GET ANY HEAVIER so I have justified it with myself. I would love to lose 8 lbs a month. That is my monthly goal or 2 lbs a week. If I lose more GREAT, but I will not expect any more than that. If I could lose 8 lbs a month for 9 or 10 months I would be back to the me I LOVE! But I know that you start to slow down towards the end and don't lose the same as at the beginning.

This is one of my senior pictures. I would like to at least be this size but if I can lose more that would be great to!

Bigger now then when I was pregnant?

I am bigger now than when I was 8 months pregnant. That is just sad!I weigh the same or more now.

I am Fat!

OK so I am just setting this thing up and it may be a couple of weeks before I start to blog. I am going to start Weight Watchers in 2 weeks and need any support or help that I can get. I heard at one time the more people you tell that you are trying to lose weight the more successful you will be.

My goals are
1. To lose 75 lbs.
2. Eat healthier.
3. Exercise at least 30 minutes, 5 times a week.
4. Lower my B/P and my cholestrol.

My back is constantly hurting, I know having all this extra weight is not helping at all. I am afraid that if I dont lose this fat that soon I will be having back surgery. Since the accident, I am having some sciatica and some neuropathy in my right leg. I don't want back surgery EVER! I am FAT and UNHEALTHY right now. I can admit I am lazy, so this is going to be difficult. I am choosing Weight Watchers because I can still eat everything I like but in moderation. I hope that I can lose all the weight in a year. I am tired of feeling crappy, old, and tired all of the time. I can't keep living my life this way. I will be done with school in 4 months and would like to start dating again. I can't do that unless I feel better about myself. I hate the way I look right now. I seriously make myself sick. Jayden looks at me and sais " you are a giant mommy". Meaning I have a big belly! I also have a closet full of clothes and scrubs that I would like to wear again. OK well that all for now. I will blog again when I get started.