Not the best, but it will do!

Well last week I didnt do as good as I did the first week. I only lost about 1 lb. I am determined to do better this week! Tonight I worked out for 45 minutes. The longest I've ever worked out before. Honestly I had to, I ate to many points for dinner and had to work them off. Working out for 45 minutes gains you 3 points. I would like to workout and not add those points to how many I can eat but there may be some days where I have to! Like for the wedding reception I am going to on Thursday. I looked online last night for a dress for my sisters wedding. I found quite a few cute ones but I am really hoping I can get into a size 18 before I buy one. Which may force me to put off getting a dress until right before the wedding. My sister said its my wedding, why do you have to worry about looking good and losing weight. Well my answer is, is I want to lose the weight but need an incentive/something to look forward to! If I have to wear a dress, have my picture taken, and essentially see people I might not regularly see, I would like to look a little better than I do now. Saying Id like to lose 19 more pounds before her wedding makes me work that much harder. I want to start dating so badly, I have had such poor self esteem for so long that I am ornery and very short tempered. I know that losing some weight will make me feel much better about myself and make it easier to put myself out there to meet someone. Alrady I am feeling much better about my self. I have been to the tanning bed a couple of times, I feel much better about myself when I am tan. I dont know why that is, I know I have naturally darker skin but I still feel "pale". Well anyway I will blog on Friday when I weigh myself again.

Week 1

Week 1 ends today. I am happy to report that I have lost 4 1/2lbs this week. This is from my original starting weight of 228 and not from the 231 I was at one point from the edema. I have had to suffer a little but not much. I have had points left over every day so its not like I had to make myself suffer but I am trying to eat less sweets. Last night I was really craving some cake or a donut. I didnt give in though! I hope week 2 goes well and I can lose at least 2 lbs.

Wii Fit

Today I bought Wii Fit Plus. I did play with it tonight and jogged for 20 minutes with the running game thing. I am so out of shape!!! It was fine though, more fun than running on the treadmill! I plan to use it again tomorow. Today was my first day of working out. I have been having some kidey problems and a cold/sinus infection? so I havent felt to great. I have been doing well with the Weight Watchers and switched back to Diet Pepsi and Diet Sprite as opposed regular which I had started drinking again. I weighed myself on Monday and had gained 4lbs in only about 5 days. I am pretty sure that is impossible to do when you have not changed your eating at all. I was sad but I am 99% sure it was just water weight as my legs were pretty edematous(filled with fluid & were mushy). I am on a diuretic, which is included in my blood pressure med, but after working 2 nights in a row or walking a lot my legs swell. Its really gross!!! I have a Dr appointment next Tuesday and I am going to ask for a different B/P med that is cheaper. I hope to get up the nerve to ask for some phentermine. I know I could go without it so if he sais no I wont mind! I am hoping to have lost a little when I go back to work on Saturday.

This is getting old!

Well, its that time again! Time to start losing weight, that is! I have become lazy again. It would be nice if I was just healthy and then my size wouldnt matter! LOL, of course it doesnt work that way! My sister is getting married April 1st and I would like to lose at least 25lbs before then. I am pretty sure that I can make it.I guess it would just be nice to lose anything before the wedding. I plan to do Weight Watchers again but this time I am doing it on my own. I will weigh myself at work once a week and see how it goes. If I cant lose it as fast as I'd like then I will go to the meetings. I unfortunately will have to start working out every day and I am not at all excited about it! I am starting Monday(4th). I wanted to start sooner but Ive got to be able to get to the store tomorow and stock up on the foods I like that are low fat and fat free. I currently weigh 228lbs. This means I have 88lbs to lose. I am planning a trip to Disneyland in October so if I could lose a majority of it by then that would be great but honestly I dont really care how long it takes as long as I steadily lose it. I go to the doctor on Monday also. Maybe I can convince him to give me some Phentermine. I could really use the help with the cravings starting out! He is not going to be happy to find out that I have not been dieting since he last saw me but owell! I have absolutely NO energy and I am tired all the time. I cant seem to sleep for longer than about an hour or two at a time and I cant seem to get to sleep at a good time either. These night shifts are killing me especially now that I am working full time. Well I will blog again after mondays doctor visit and the workout!