Well I am still alive. I am still working out and trying to eat healthy. Its was difficult last week and I am pretty sure I didnt lose much. Its hard to know where I am at. I ran out of my HCTZ, which is a diuretic. My calves and legs swell so much when I dont have it and my shoes dont fit right either. I swell everywhere but its most noticable in my legs. I gained 4-5lbs in only a few days and now I am almost back down to normal. It makes me feel gross and sluggish to have all that extra fluid. I have a hammer toe and it rubbed the side of my shoes and got swollen and hurt. I was sure I broke it or something. I didnt work out for few days becuase of it but I have put away my $126 shoes for work and started wearing only my crocs there and at home to. I bought I cute pair of hooker shoes for Aleenas wedding and they have 5" heels on them so I have to get this toe healed. OH I almost forgot why I got on to post because of my ramblings! I can wear size 18 in most brands and some XL's in tops and some XXL in brands I have only been able to wear size 2X in for awhile! I am so HAPPY about that! I was wearing a size 22 in pants before. Its absolutely amazing how much 15 lbs can do! I am gaining more confidence and I am feeling to much better. Since I have had my gallbladder out I suffered with some chronic bowel problems( I am sure you can guess without me saying).I was eating a diet pretty high in fat, people with no gallbladders are suppose to eat low fat and high fiber diets. Well I got rid of the fat but didnt eat as much fiber as I should have and I am sure you can imagine the problem that caused. Went from one extreme to the other. So my lesson was learned and I am now eating WAY more vegetables and thanks to my Mom I just got a huge box full today too! I have a developed a LOVE for cauliflower. It is so YUMMY. Right now I am on a cauliflower and baby carrot kick. I need to include more fruits though. I know I have inspired a few of my friends to either start eating better or start woring out. I am so happy that they can join me in my journey and that I have people to talk to about it. Anyone considering dieting or losing weight should GO for it! It makes you feel so much better!

End of week 5

I know these are not attractive at all. My sports bra and workout clothes look horrible but usually its only me that sees me in them!

Well, I am still going strong, I think? Its amazing how toned I am starting to look after such a short amount of time(my legs and arms anyway). My belly appears to have shrunk a little and my back is looking much slimmer! I still have my days where I dont feel like working out and sometimes I just plain dont, but my new goal is to work out 45 minutes a day at least 5 days a week. I hope to work out everyday but after working all night, and not getting more than 5 hours of actual "sleep", and having to go back to work again just makes me lazy. I am pretty sure in a year from now I am going to need some plastic surgery but I guess only time will tell. I cant wait to lose about 30 more pounds at that point I am going to buy a few new outfits. I imagine that wont be until some time in May but hey its something to look forward to, right? I am somewhat happy with my success so far but its been hard and I wonder if I could be doing better. I have been dealing with some depression, which is making me ornery, angry, and sad all at the same time! I think I am finally shaking it after getting back on my old medication but double the dosage. My Dr had me try a new one and it led to an all time LOW! Its frustrating when I go to the dr and I know what I want and he does the opposite. I am a Nurse for crying out loud! I know what I am talking about and Drs are in too big of a hurry to listen! Well problem solved, going to another Doctor! I have some pics of where I am at now and every 2 weeks or so I will post some new ones. Its hard for me to look at them but know I am slowly melting, lol, I can deal with it!